i took a break in november 05
nothing in june 06
too busy in september 06
december was busy, too
february? forget about it
got lazy in may
p r e d i c t i o n s
i had a terrible dream this morning, that i got into a car accident. i was a passenger in some sort of moving vehicle, and all of a sudden there was a white car stopped in front of me, but i wasn't slowing down. a split second before impact, i woke myself up in a panic. for a moment, i felt ok. and then i could feel the adrenaline rushing through my body, and i began to sweat, and breathe hard, and my heart was pounding.
yesterday, i had made the decision to ride my vespa into work. i've made this decision a few times over the last few weeks, but at the last minute, always changed my mind. for some reason, i was too scared. you would think that after having a terrible dream about a car accident, the last thing i would want to do was ride my vespa to work.
but i did it. and i was fine.
while i was getting ready for work, for some reason i started to think about the only coworker i can actually see from my office. (we all have offices, but we have windows out into the hallway so we can see out...but the way my desk is situated, i can only see one person from where i'm usually sitting.) a particular t-shirt stuck in my mind, and i thought "i bet that's the t-shirt so-and-so is going to wear today."
it took me about an hour into the day for me to realize that, indeed, so-and-so was wearing the exact same t-shirt that i had for some reason bet myself was going to be worn today.
of the two possible predictions that crossed my mind this morning, i'm glad that the t-shirt won out.
camilles (6:54pm, 6.29.07)
g i r l s
it's no secret that in general, i don't much like other women. and from what i can tell, that isn't all that unusual.
women who don't like other women seem to fall into 2 categories:
i'd like to think that for the most part, i'm not threatened by the existence of other women. i can freely admit that there are smarter, more skilled, more attractive women than i in the world. and i LIKE that, because that is what makes the world so interesting and varied.
what i don't like, is being scrutinized for no good reason.
at my last job, while there were a few girls in the office that i really truly liked, there were others that i absolutely despised. mainly because they could stand to lose a few pounds, would eat all of the junk food lying around the office, and couldn't go one day without commenting on the fact that i wasn't fat like they were.
in fact, i think the breaking point came when i was basically given the 3rd degree because i didn't feel like eating birthday cake 15 minutes before the end of the work day (because i didn't feel like spoiling my dinner).
NOT EAT CAKE?!!!
the gasp and shock and horror of the ladies around me made me want to scream.
let me be perfectly clear that i like people of all shapes and sizes. if you are happy with the way you are, more power to you. it's the women that constantly complain about their lot in life, but don't do anything to change it that just kill me.
of course, i, too, am guilty of the occassional catty remark. we were at the local bar on saturday, and we couldn't help but giggle amongst ourselves about the woman who obviously had kids in their 20s wearing the open back shirt that didn't cover up much in the front either. and it didn't help that she was chatting up anything male in any age range that passed her way. but she wasn't hurting anyone, and other than looking a little silly and desperate, actually had an amazing body for a woman her age. (granted, the plastic surgery was pretty obvious.)
but at that same bar, a friend told me that as soon as i left the bathroom after using the facilities, where i overheard a group of girls discussing recent babies and future tummy tucks, these same girls felt the need to comment on MY looks...specifically that i was skinny and pretty cute, but that i have no boobs.
what the heck?
what did I do to deserve their scrutiny? i certainly wasn't dressed provacatively! i wasn't out on the dance floor trying to steal their dudes! all i had been doing in there was washing my hands, to be followed by returning to the bar to enjoy hanging out with my friends.
well, anyway. i'm just happy rocking what God gave me, and nobody else seems to be bothered by that. i'm just sorry those bathroom girls failed to recognize my sharp intellect or mention my cute bootie. :)
my friend wouldn't have said anything to me if it was going to hurt my feelings. i think she was more bemused than anything else. and i wasn't hurt at all by it. i just don't understand it.
anyway, the weekend of bizzare woman scrutiny was capped off at the grocery store, where there was apparently some woman who gave me the 3 over up and down examination followed by something of a dirty look, which i failed to notice, but jeff saw and was very confused by.
i joked that she must have wanted to fight me for some reason.
probably wanted to fight me for jeff.
camilles (6:27pm, 6.25.07)
s u m m e r t i m e
we've been too busy. good busy, but too busy. i think that out of the past 8 weekends, we've only been home for 2 of them. we are looking forward the coming weekend at home.
but knowing us, by the time saturday afternoon rolls around, we'll be bored and trying to think of something exciting to do. maybe go to the beach.
we spent this last weekend with our families celebrating father's day.
jeff took my dad and eric off roading in the gorman/frazier park area on saturday, while the ladies stayed behind. from the pictures and the stories, they had an awesome time. the new jeep was totally filthy, which is sort of a badge of honor. when they got home, we all headed out for a nice dinner.
on sunday, we met up with linda and hans at ports o'call village in san pedro for a shrimp plate lunch. it's hard to describe, but it's messy and good. afterwards, we all headed over to disneyland to spend a few hours together.
jeff and i decided to wait in the 2 hour line for the new finding nemo submarine ride (while the in-laws wandered elsewhere), since our annual passes expire very soon, and we don't expect to be getting back to the park until the fall. it was weird, since i can't even remember the last time i went on the submarine ride.
it was familiar, yet different. the stinky smell of stale air wasn't there, like i had memories of. but with the exception of a fresh coat of paint, and floatation devices (which may have been present before, but i don't remember), it was still a submarine ride.
being the tiki nerds we are, we were excited to see some sunken tiki statues in the outside part of the ride. not that the pictures are all that great, but i know that they are there. the nemo portion of it takes place once you go under the waterfall and into the cave, and was pretty cool. VERY similar to the effects of the nemo ride in florida that we saw at epcot center last december, but a totally different experience.
worth the 2 hour wait? well...probably not. but it's cool that we got to see it in the first week it is technically open to the public. and it is very cute.
camilles (9:17pm, 6.19.07)
n o t p o o r
anytime jeff asks me how we are doing moneywise, i tell him, "we're poor." but he made me admit just now that, no...we actually aren't poor. his mom has called us "dinks" before. dual-income-no-kids. we are. for the moment. :)
i am eternally grateful for all of the opportunities and educations our parents have given us over the years for us to get to the place that we are. we both have good jobs that we are pretty successful at. we have the ability to take awesome vacations. we own a townhouse and have a brand new car.
but at the same time, anyone will tell you that we are pretty practical and financially cautious. the things that bring us the most joy are the experiences we share in living our ever-so-slightly out-of-the-box adventures together.
i am thankful for swap meets, local eating establishments, lebowskifests, bisbee, tiki culture, transformers, old cars, new cars, scooters, tattoos, beer festivals, burlesque, disco, rockabilly, hawaii, mileage plus...and being able to have some pink hair at work.
my boss surprised me with an awesome box of chocolates for my birthday. i was belated with his birthday present, and he was belated with mine. but belated doesn't matter, especially when the gift is awesome. jeff and i shared the raspberry chocolate and the hazelnut chocolate. they were killer.
speaking of bdays, it's benzo the ben's 28th today. we came up with a sweet birthday present idea for him...which of course will be belated.
the item we got him was reviewed by the late james kim on cnet. it was the first time i'd actually watched him on video before, and it was eerie. it still almost makes me cry everytime i think about him trying to rescue his wife and babies. trista said that while that whole thing was going on, she couldn't help but think of our dad, and how he probably would have done the same thing...
camilles (6:13pm, 6.14.07)
n e w h a t
my mom always used to say that when ladies from the olden days were feeling blue, they would buy themselves a new hat. i have no idea whee this story came from, but jeff and i like to use that as an excuse for occasional retail therapy.
i'm not feeling blue. just a little frumpy. so my sweet hubby helped me out by applying a fresh coat of pink to the bleached out spots in my hair. this will be the first time i do true pink since i was in college. it will probably fade out pretty quickly, but it should be fun for a few days.
we spent a nice weekend hanging out with my family this past weekend. got to see my brother perform with his gamelan group at uc riverside. had a slumber party with my folks at a hotel. went hiking. saw ocean's thirteen. had crepes. sat on jeff's old couch at my brother's apartment watching pimp my ride. ate birthday steak at a crazy restaurant in colton called pinnacle peak. met up with coworkers for a few beers in ontario. headed to the in-laws to spend the night. woke up and headed to truck fest. ate lunch at a tiki restaurant in glendora. watched the end of enough. drove home. sat on the couch being totally lazy.
it was a busy weekend, to say the least. but it was nice.
this weekend we'll do it again, with it being father's day and all.
jeff bought me the sea monkey set i was eyeing while he scrutinized the transformer selection at target earlier today. i'm imagining it will be quite the hit in my office. we'll see. we'll see.
off to wash the dye out of my hair!
camilles (8:40pm, 6.13.07)
2 9 & g o o d w e i r d
today as i was iming a coworker (who sits in the office across from mine), someone passed through our area of the building and it went:
him: i don't like that person. that person is weird. weird in a bad way.
i guess i will take that as a compliment.
my 29th birthday slid up and passed last week, to MUCH fanfare and celebration. as with every birthday, i've been reflecting on everything that has happened in my life recently, and if i thought i was a different person or a better person. and i realized, that with the exception of some self-indulgent rambling here on my website very sporadically, i really don't think about myself all that often. sure, i like to keep myself clean and present myself as an interesting person, but i never dwell on many of the bad decisions i've made or feel sorry for myself or try to figure out if i "love" myself. probably because i'm just comfortable with being who i am.
so good weird it is.
my work bff blew up a ton of balloons and stuck signs and stuff all over my office for my birthday. i was sung to not once but TWICE by various different coworkers. took a half day off and headed up to the mountains to do some birthday camping with my peeps.
did some hiking. note our drinking hats.
and in other news, jeff and i also just got back from another fantastic trip to hawaii. we spent 4 nights on the Big Island and 3 nights on Oahu. it was everything we could have hoped for, with the exception of a 7 hour ordeal in the dark wandering aimlessly through lava fields with nobody to guide us back to our car. that sucked. but other than that (and the blisters and destroyed bodies the next few days), it was an awesome trip and we did all sorts of new stuff.
we hiked to the edge of a gigantic open crater
but our next big trip is in september, when we head off for an Alaskan cruise. which i'm VERY excited about.
ok. enough about all that. let me get back to my hubby.
camilles (6:43pm, 6.7.07)