i took a break in november 05
nothing in june 06
too busy in september 06
december was busy, too
february? forget about it
got lazy in may
a l l d o n e
after going through hours of sort-of torture at the salon last night, i am pretty much done with the transition to being a blonde.
while there were some surprised people around the office (including a few who just completely didn't recognize me), for the most part, it seems like my coworkers have come to expect it. kind of like when i was driving shuttles. i was known for my hair and my shoes. same at this job...although i've laid off the shoes for a little bit since i just splurged on a bunch of new dresses. i'm wearing one today.
i went to lunch with a high percentage of my female coworkers today. that means it was me, and two other ladies. that was a full 50% of the women that were in the office today, since 2 are out for the week.
one of them mentioned that i am so bold to go crazy with my hair. i told her that it is all really a distraction tactic, to cover up the fact that i am so shy.
"you're not shy!" she yelled. (she yells most of the time.)
"oh, yes i am!" i said.
"oh, yes she is!" annalisa said. "in fact, when i first started working here, the only thing that gave her real personality away was her shoes. that's how i figured her out!"
first impressions, people. i try to express myself in my physical appearance, to be able to hide in my shy shell just long enough to get a feel for the waters.
it does backfire, though. some of my college suitemates thought i was a pretty-girl snob, because i wouldn't talk to them. they eventually learned that i was just terrified to have to talk to anybody new. at least that was the first time i was mistaken for a pretty-girl instead of the big dork i've always been. ha ha!
my job requires me to fake being a personable person. i've gotten really good at whipping out business cards as if they were attached to a launcher strapped to my arm. my boss has taught me that. i smile and pretend that i'm totally comfortable, even though i wish i was hiding somewhere else.
fortunately, i've also gotten comfortable enough with my coworkers, that i know which ones will plow through industry lunches with me before everyone else shows up, so we can avoid having to "network" and instead waste our lunch hour watching jerry springer and making fun of the misfortunes of other people.
i may have mentioned it before, but it took me over a year before i ever went to lunch with a coworker. i was too shy to ask. but i'm glad to report that i've got some good peeps on my side now.
camilles (5:41pm, 8.22.07)
n o m o r e p i n k
the other day, jeff and i were cruising around town and i decided (as i looked at myself in the sideview mirror) that it was time to change my hair.
how about blonde? i asked him.
and he said, sure. whatever you would like, sweetie. or something to that effect.
he is so good about just going along with my crazy ideas.
it's been 7 years since i was blonde, and i'm not in a position anymore to just get away with my home-hack-haircolor jobs, so i went to visit the same guy who does my friend annalisa's hair.
he was a little annoyed at first, because the dude who had scheduled me for my appointment hadn't scheduled me for enough time to get the whole thing done...even though i had specified that i had dark brown hair and i was looking to go platinum blonde. but the hair guy did what he could in the short amount of time that he had, and at least it's a good start. and it gives me a chance to adjust.
i'll finish it up in 2 weeks. :)
camilles (9:21pm, 8.8.07)
a l l t o o b i g
as you all know, jeff likes to bring me presents back from all the exotic places he visits. a few trips to china ago, he bought a few t-shirts for me, including the gigantic yellow beauty above.
i have no idea what the words say, but the dragon was pretty cool...and i was bummed because i knew there was no way i would ever wear it. he had asked for a small, but they gave him a large.
my sewing machine has been banished to a corner for months, ever since we gave leanne her dining table back. with no surface to work on, i'd been patiently waiting until there was space somewhere in the house for me to set up a table or something. jeff had actually cleaned out the garage a while back, so we finally bought a folding table and set it up outside.
there was a pattern in a readymade magazine AGES ago, for reconstructing too large t-shirts, so i finally decided to take a crack at it.
and it didn't even take me that long to do!
so i've got a ton of other large tshirts lying around the house. i'm going to see what i can do to fix them up, as well.
camilles (10:07pm, 8.5.07)
b a c k t o n o r m a l
my sweetie is back, and brought me all sorts of gifts from the land of tulips and wooden shoes. the tulips are beautiful. i even took a few to work, and my coworkers were very impressed by what a good husband i have. i definitely do have a good husband. the best i could ever hope for.
it's been a really long week. we did inventory on tuesday, and i'm still having nightmares about it now. not really...but it makes you unmotivated to work hard when you've just completed such a horrendous task. thankfully, it's over. that just means my busy season is just around the corner.
and randomly, how do most people rate attractiveness? i was having a conversation with a coworker about who her office bf (aka, office crush...no real bfs, of course) was, and while i managed to guess correctly in about 3 guesses, it eventually turned to who we did and did not find attractive.
i've always had a hard time separating physical attractiveness and personality attractiveness from each other. if you are physically attractive, and a jerk, you can be pretty ugly to me. but if you aren't necessarilly the most physically attractive, but you have a nice personality, you could eventually grow to be more physically attractive, as well. but maybe i'm just one of the few where "having a nice personality" actually means something.
luckily for me, my hubby came with both. when i met him, i honestly thought he was one of the most attractive guys i had ever seen. and then as we got to know each other more, i realized he was also the kindest, funniest, most interesting guys i had ever met.
so i figured i should marry him before he got away.
that's worked out pretty well. :)
camilles (5:32pm, 8.2.07)